hectic week

yesterday, i didnt slp reli well...i think its because the heating mat was too hot....
my first class wasnt that bad, the kids enjoyed the game and i was happy about that....
but then, i received an email from my dad.....and after reading it, it totally turned my mood upside down....my heart sank, my head went blank

my grandma died ytd morning....

didnt expected that...out of no where, she suddenly decided to leave....
i was planning on visiting her in jan....and i guess its too late now....

i can still recall the scene a year ago, when i was visiting her at her house....she talked to me and was so happy to see me....we promised we have to see again...

we couldnt keep this promise....

all i can see now is her dead body....

i miss u grandma, pls rest in peace
i love u so so much...i wish we had more time together...

everytime people leave me, i always feel reli guilty...
i feel like i could have done better....
i could have visited her more....
i could have given her more attention....

booked my tickets to hong kong....gonna leave on friday and come back on tuesday
there are lots to take care of....