my grandma's funeral...

friday night...i headed to incheon airport....
not until i was on the plane, did i feel like im really going to HK...(after 8 months)
it felt unreal...because this trip was so unexpected...

watched a movie and time went by real fast....

i did the same old thing ....i bought some magazines and read it while i was waiting for my mom....it took her awhile to find me, because she said she didnt recognise me....i wonder which part of me changed that made me unrecognisable?!?!!?she said i dress like a foreigner hmmmm...

then we went on the bus together.....to go home....or should i say, go to her house!?>!>!
because i dont even know where it is.....it felt kinda strange.....to be going to a place u call home....but u duno how to go there and where it is....we had a nice chat on the bus and after 1 hr...we arrived!

saturday morning...we went to get food in Jordon.....my favorite noodle restaurant....i didnt reli miss the food in HK until i started eating that OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! korean food is nothing compared to all the food i had this weekend!!!!!!!!!!!

then i went to the store to get my iphone fixed.....i actually had no idea why i need to...since i cant even use it in korea.....so i decided to give it to my bro...(but seems like he is not interested in taking it)

had tea with my mom's frds...then i headed to city super to get gelatin....(something i cant find in korea).....i literally bought the whole supermarket home...and then realize i dont have enough space in my suit case T_T

was exhausted when i got home....had cha siu and chicken with riceeeeee hmmm yummm

sunday morning we headed to china reli early.....after lunch, we headed to the funeral.....there were so many rules to follow....and i reli learned a lot more about my own culture through this experience! i spent a gd 2-3 hours burning paper money to my grandma.......although im christian.....i still think its necessary to follow these cultural rule to show my respect and filial piety to my grandma...and i sincerely hope whatever we have done these 2 days helped her to rest in peace.....

everyone got reli emotional when we looked at her face for the one last time before they close the coffin.......T_T
its the first time that i saw my dad cry.....its so sad.....and i cant imagine how it feels to lose a mother.....reli dont want to think about it.....

the ceremony involved a lot of walking and chanting.....and we all had to wear some kind of white cloth on us......we also had to burn lots of incense

after the ceremony, everyone is required to take a red packet...and inside is a piece of candy and a 1 dollar coin.....we have to eat that on the spot and also spend the 1 dollar coin asap.....

after that, we had a reli nice dinner at a hotel....but it was kinda awkward at first...coz no one reli spoke and it was dead silent most of the time....

sunday morning...we headed to the graveyard.....it was very interesting that we had to call our grandma's name when they load the coffin into the truck and also off the truck....as if she is still alive.....when the people buried her...i saw my dad cry again.....T_T

after all that, the organizer said we have to wear this red string with a piece of pine leaf on our hand....and also eat particular food e.g. pork, chicken, fish... to make the ceremony complete....

and im planning to not eat meat for 1-2 weeks......in remembrance of my grandma and i hope she can rest in peace....

also, i was told if i dont cut my hair today, i cant for 3 months....so i think i have to make a trip to seoul!!!!!!!!! ><

the whole time i was in HK, i felt so weird....i felt like i shouldnt be there...and i dont belong there.....
when i was walking around.....looking at the ppl around me....i just dont feel any connection with them at all....and i cant imagine living there.....its so hot and stuffy and its still 22 degrees in winter.....i reli dun understand how people can stand that =.=

i remember having lots of things i want to drop down here....
maybe i will do an update again when i can think of more to say

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had a nice long conversation with my dad....we never reli talked before that...and i was so happy to get to know more about him....he told me about his past and also details of his company and plansss......he asked me to help him write an introduction for his product homepage......i will try my hardest and i hope i can help him in every way....

after the conversation, i also realize i reli have to start saving money......i have to pay for my brother tuition, my own tuition, my mom's living expenses....and later even morgage....and even more $$ to make my goal possible

need to be strong....cant be tempted my material goods no more!!!!!!!!!